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I FEEL LIKE I AM MAKING A MISTAKE.

In a moment you say, send, write something that you really mean, there is no turning back. I feel like I can't stop writing. lol. the dang head and heart are going at it, big time!  Because my thoughts are so explosive the only way to keep them from being completely combustive is for me to let a little out at a time. Right now I just feel like I'm writing too much, not enough, the wrong thing, the right thing, what I feel, what I think I should feel,  what people try to tell me I feel, what I mean, what I don't mean;

CALGON!!!!!!!!! TAKE ME AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Is it pathetic to admit a need? Is it needy to admit a want? I am trying to look towards the day when I don't feel like a crazy lady spinning her wheels. I internalize everything and that's why i keep writing; to let some of it out. Seems like the more I try to do to distance myself from some feelings and thoughts the more intense they become. THIS IS NUTS!
 Question: Do you think you can feel what someone else is feeling though you aren't with them or is it that you want them to feel a certain way so you convince yourself that they MUST be feeling what you wish they felt? lolol...that got a little convoluted didn't it? I have always been intuitive and most of the time I turn out to be right, not because I think I'm right but it just turns out that way. Now my intuition is telling me some things and I don't know if I'm right this time because if I am right, it doesn't matter. I still feel like a crazy lady. lol.
What the hell is wrong with me? I don't like this. I was fine. I am fine so why such anxiety?