Let me get this out the way
so there ain't no complications
later on for us, no
Look, I know things don't stay the same
People grow and seasons change, but
when it comes to love
don't you feel like
you ever gotta worry about
my feelings changing for you all the time
'cause when I say I'm here
girl, I mean it
So when the world and the odds are against us
you won't have to question
The answer is yes
When 2 or 3 years from now
you start having some doubts
about if this love will last
The answer is yes
I'll still think you're beautiful
'cause I'm more attracted to what's inside of you
You don't have to guess
The answer is yes
'Cause I love you
All I care about is your happiness,
so the answer is yes
People just don't stick around (no)
build you up and let you down, but
I'm not one of those, no (girl)
I understand that you've been burned (before)
Honesty is what you deserve (so much more) yea
and so that's what I'm giving you, girl
So when the world and the odds are against us
you won't have to question
The answer is yes
When 2 or 3 years from now
you start having some doubts
about if this love will last
The answer is yes
I'll still think you're beautiful
'cause I'm more attracted to what's inside of you
You don't have to guess
The answer is yes
Now, if you ask
will I go (no)
when you need me most (no)
the answer is no
I'm dedicated to what we have
but will I be here
the way that I promise
I'll say with no fear
The answer is yes
When 2 or 3 years from now
you start having some doubts
about if this love will last
The answer is yes, and
I'll still think you're beautiful
'cause I'm more attracted to what's inside of you
You don't have to guess
The answer is yes
When 2 or 3 years from now
you start having some doubts
about if this love will last
The answer is yes
I'll still think you're beautiful
'cause I'm more attracted to what's inside of you
You don't have to guess
The answer is yes
Monday, July 25, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
The "Love" Breakdown.
Many people may say I overdose on the idea of Love but "Why Not?" In our day to day lives we endure images and experiences of drama, hate, violence, despair, contentment, depressions, anxiety, self esteem and so many other factors that make us who we are and also keeps us on the perimeter of our destiny.
I speak of love because I seek to give and receive love, regardless of my current situation. Funny (not funny "haha") thing is, there are some people in my life, probably most people close to me, have this misconception that I'm not sensitive. The truth is I am extremely sensitive and sometimes it overwhelms me. My sensitivity level is not to be mistaken with my capability to honest , forthcoming and assertive when I need to be. I have a tremendous voice and a vast perspective on many things in life but I have a heart for God and when you have a heart that's been broken and mended and broken and mended and broken and mended, this heart becomes fragile. Like many people who have gone through traumatic and challenging experiences, I have had my moments of not wanting to forgive or trust anyone ever again, regardless of who they were but simply put; I'm just not made that way.
As I wrote before, many people may say I overdose on the idea of Love but "Why Not?" Let's break down what love is, shall we?
Love is not necessarily a feeling but the idea that causes certain physical reactions to happen. Love is not imaginary. Love is best expressed though actions and words. Some people think to "make love" is simply the act of a sexual encounter accompanied by emotional attachment. That may not be far from the truth but Making love is more than sex. It's the connection and assurance that you will be with that person through everything. It's the intimacy that happens when you have proven that you are willing to be what they need and what they desire. Making love is a merging of souls, spirits and minds to come to a point of agreeing that the other person is not the dominate source of, not only affection but encouragement, support, dedication, and adoration. Making love is not sex. Sex is sex. Making Love is the physical portion of the relationship that just solidifies what has already been established.
People show love in so many different ways but there are many misconceptions about love and one of the greatest is that both parties have to love each other for the "LOVE" to be valid. The person receiving this outpouring of love must feel it. I do believe that you can love someone who doesn't love you but their acknowledgement of your love isn't required for them to still be loved. Many of us love from a distance. I love LOTS of people from afar. Sometimes, you just have to. No...I don't mean stalking someone. lol. I mean to either feel an affection for someone who, at this time, is not able to be in your life, capable of accepting your love or has soooooooooooo much crap with them you just want them to stay exactly where they are. lol. That last one was specifically for family. lololol. Just kidding. (nodding my head "no")
As for me, I like showing my love. I don't make grand gestures or grand demands but I love my folks. If some don't love me, that's cool, too. I can love them from a distance. I don't need to be in your face everyday for you to know I love you. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE...it's just pretty sometimes. Sometimes it's looks like a train wreck and feels like one, too. If you can survive it, you will learn soooooo much. I should be a freakin' genious!
later taters!
I speak of love because I seek to give and receive love, regardless of my current situation. Funny (not funny "haha") thing is, there are some people in my life, probably most people close to me, have this misconception that I'm not sensitive. The truth is I am extremely sensitive and sometimes it overwhelms me. My sensitivity level is not to be mistaken with my capability to honest , forthcoming and assertive when I need to be. I have a tremendous voice and a vast perspective on many things in life but I have a heart for God and when you have a heart that's been broken and mended and broken and mended and broken and mended, this heart becomes fragile. Like many people who have gone through traumatic and challenging experiences, I have had my moments of not wanting to forgive or trust anyone ever again, regardless of who they were but simply put; I'm just not made that way.
As I wrote before, many people may say I overdose on the idea of Love but "Why Not?" Let's break down what love is, shall we?
Love is not necessarily a feeling but the idea that causes certain physical reactions to happen. Love is not imaginary. Love is best expressed though actions and words. Some people think to "make love" is simply the act of a sexual encounter accompanied by emotional attachment. That may not be far from the truth but Making love is more than sex. It's the connection and assurance that you will be with that person through everything. It's the intimacy that happens when you have proven that you are willing to be what they need and what they desire. Making love is a merging of souls, spirits and minds to come to a point of agreeing that the other person is not the dominate source of, not only affection but encouragement, support, dedication, and adoration. Making love is not sex. Sex is sex. Making Love is the physical portion of the relationship that just solidifies what has already been established.
People show love in so many different ways but there are many misconceptions about love and one of the greatest is that both parties have to love each other for the "LOVE" to be valid. The person receiving this outpouring of love must feel it. I do believe that you can love someone who doesn't love you but their acknowledgement of your love isn't required for them to still be loved. Many of us love from a distance. I love LOTS of people from afar. Sometimes, you just have to. No...I don't mean stalking someone. lol. I mean to either feel an affection for someone who, at this time, is not able to be in your life, capable of accepting your love or has soooooooooooo much crap with them you just want them to stay exactly where they are. lol. That last one was specifically for family. lololol. Just kidding. (nodding my head "no")
As for me, I like showing my love. I don't make grand gestures or grand demands but I love my folks. If some don't love me, that's cool, too. I can love them from a distance. I don't need to be in your face everyday for you to know I love you. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE...it's just pretty sometimes. Sometimes it's looks like a train wreck and feels like one, too. If you can survive it, you will learn soooooo much. I should be a freakin' genious!
later taters!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
New Poetry - "Head Tilt"
Head Tilt
Written by: TRU Essence,
Copyright 2011
it enters my ears and saturates my essence
shutting out the ambient noises of life as it is happening around me
panning from the left then to the right
my mind is pulsating with that which forms images of what I thought my heart felt for you
in stereo, I hear the same 10 chords playing over and over
this melody;
this harmony;
this song plays out my cycle of love with you
love for you
love left by you
rhythmic patterns enter at the moment my heart begins to faint
bringing me into a place of exhaustion and complex happiness
words bringing me sadness from memories of you
music making me smile for having known you
having loved you
just having you
In stereo, I hear the same 10 chords playing over and over
this melody;
this harmony;
this song haunts me with a beautifully devastating message of a closeness, now gone
for a few moments I gave in to the melody
I hit repeat to keep reality at bay
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
I MADE IT!!! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!! I'M AWESOME! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAY...I MADE IT!
It's my birthday and the world is awesome! I'm happy to say that it feels good to see another year. This is a great day to look back on the past year and say goodbye to the things I've left behind. As I look forward, I'm am nervous but excited about what's to come and who I will encounter as I move forward. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEE!
With all of the birthday wishes I have received today, one stood out for me and I love it! My friend in London (by way of Jamaica) wished me a Happy Earthstrong Day!!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWESOME!!!! No one had ever wished me a Happy Earthstrong Day and of course I asked for clarity. He said "Your still going strong on God's earth..." Ummm, that is fantastic!!! I read another explanation of Earthstrong and it read "The day one arrives on Earth, Strong enough to survive, live to see another birthday - the date the earth was blessed with one's presence." This gives me such a new outlook on birthdays and celebrating my strength among a world of people and occurrences that have the capacity to weaken the body and spirit. So, to all my friends, near and far, celebrating a birthday today, this week, this month, this year...I say to you, "HAPPY EARTHSTRONG DAY"!!!!!!!!!! May you grow stronger each day. Blessings and Peace, loved ones!!!!
Stay TRU! (^_^)
With all of the birthday wishes I have received today, one stood out for me and I love it! My friend in London (by way of Jamaica) wished me a Happy Earthstrong Day!!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWESOME!!!! No one had ever wished me a Happy Earthstrong Day and of course I asked for clarity. He said "Your still going strong on God's earth..." Ummm, that is fantastic!!! I read another explanation of Earthstrong and it read "The day one arrives on Earth, Strong enough to survive, live to see another birthday - the date the earth was blessed with one's presence." This gives me such a new outlook on birthdays and celebrating my strength among a world of people and occurrences that have the capacity to weaken the body and spirit. So, to all my friends, near and far, celebrating a birthday today, this week, this month, this year...I say to you, "HAPPY EARTHSTRONG DAY"!!!!!!!!!! May you grow stronger each day. Blessings and Peace, loved ones!!!!
Stay TRU! (^_^)
Monday, July 11, 2011
I accept today.
It's been a rather melancholy week. I don't think I'm sad like I was last week. I'm just here. Although I have a lot on my mind, my thoughts are not cluttered like they were last week. If I'm blessed, tomorrow I will see my 37th years on this planet. That's pretty good. I don't mind it. It's kinda bittersweet for me but I'm going to accept the sweet. I'm not where I thought I'd be at this time last year but then again, I'm not the woman I was last year so I'm grateful for everything I've experienced (good and bad) over the last year.
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I cannot say I'm the happiest I've ever been but I'm really okay. I'm more than okay. It may not necessarily show on my face but my heart is so full of gratitude and adoration for God. I see my friends moving on and building families and I think, sometimes, "Why not me?" then I remember that I'm not them. I can only be me so their paths are not designed to carry my footsteps and they can't walk my path. I have always said that I desire clarity for my purpose and what it is I'm suppose to be but I think I was looking for some sort of finite idea of who I am to be and the truth is...I will never attain a finite idea or definition of who Tru is. I am ever evolving into the next phase of this woman. The words I write and say today will be but a memory tomorrow and new words will shape new thoughts and ideas. I'm okay with that. So, tomorrow, I may laugh. Tomorrow, I may cry. Tomorrow, I may be quiet or rant for the entire day but one thing I know for sure is if I see tomorrow, I will thank God. I will thank him for
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37 years of life
37 years of love
37 years of tears
37 years of laughter
37 years of happy moments
37 years of sorrowful moments
37 years of growth
37 years of wisdom
37 years of family
37 years of friends
37 years of knowing who to keep close and which ones to let go of
37 years of breath.
37 years of thought
37 years of hope
37 years of gratitude
37 years of being...all of the above.
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As much as I have had to endure over my 37 years, some of which I would never wish on any enemy in this world, I will say this... I wouldn't trade my life or the woman I have become for anything in this world.
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I cannot say I'm the happiest I've ever been but I'm really okay. I'm more than okay. It may not necessarily show on my face but my heart is so full of gratitude and adoration for God. I see my friends moving on and building families and I think, sometimes, "Why not me?" then I remember that I'm not them. I can only be me so their paths are not designed to carry my footsteps and they can't walk my path. I have always said that I desire clarity for my purpose and what it is I'm suppose to be but I think I was looking for some sort of finite idea of who I am to be and the truth is...I will never attain a finite idea or definition of who Tru is. I am ever evolving into the next phase of this woman. The words I write and say today will be but a memory tomorrow and new words will shape new thoughts and ideas. I'm okay with that. So, tomorrow, I may laugh. Tomorrow, I may cry. Tomorrow, I may be quiet or rant for the entire day but one thing I know for sure is if I see tomorrow, I will thank God. I will thank him for
37 years of life
37 years of love
37 years of tears
37 years of laughter
37 years of happy moments
37 years of sorrowful moments
37 years of growth
37 years of wisdom
37 years of family
37 years of friends
37 years of knowing who to keep close and which ones to let go of
37 years of breath.
37 years of thought
37 years of hope
37 years of gratitude
37 years of being...all of the above.
As much as I have had to endure over my 37 years, some of which I would never wish on any enemy in this world, I will say this... I wouldn't trade my life or the woman I have become for anything in this world.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
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