I Wanna Love the Way I Do.

I wanna sing.

      I wanna be happy.

       I wanna dance.

I wanna be happy.

I wanna draw.

I wanna be happy.

I wanna write.

I wanna be happy.

I wanna play.

I wanna be happy.

I wanna talk.

I wanna be happy.

I will pray.

I will be happy.

I'm sitting here thinking about all that I would like to do with my life.  I know it's not too late to do any or all of what I want to do or too late to be who I want to become. I have had many stumbling blocks; physical, psychological and spiritual but I persevere. I have to.  I have had some wonderful people come into my life and some of them have either departed this life or just departed my life but I have learned something from them all. I have learned that I am a talented young woman and that the way I love people means something to me. Even if my love is not reciprocated or at least accepted, I can move forward knowing that I have an extraordinary capacity to love people.  I hesitated to pour my heart into people but all I can say now is you get the love back that you put in. Even if the people you pour your love into don't return it, there is always someone waiting to give you back interest on your return. 

 

   

Last year, I let go of a few people who were friends. I didn't want to but I guess some things we have little control over. Now I have so many wonderful people in my life that I never expected but have become great friends. They let me laugh and cry (at Denny's over breakfast!!!! lol wink!). They let me pout and sulk. They let me talk and be quiet and most of all they know my love and comfort me when I'm hurt.  You know when you love people without hesitation or caution you seem more susceptible to being hurt and since I don't want to love less I know I will be hurt. These friends help me deal with the anticipation of hurt but encourage me to not dwell and be a better version of myself.

God knows what and who I need. I'm glad He never runs out of resources!