The interesting thing about being silent is that no other person can live within the realm of your silence but you. Heavy contemplation of who you are happens in silence. A level of honesty is present in your quiet moments that cannot be denied. Even if you have give people a false perception of who you are, the real version of yourself makes an appearance when you are alone with no one watching. The only drawback to that is in your own silence, and I know this will sound all preachy but if you don't have a connection to God and an understanding of His love, it is your perception of truth that takes up residence in your quiet moments.
In the quiet moments, truths are revealed, decisions are made, perceptions are challenged, encourage is found, sorrow is amplified, troubles are calculated and peace can be attained. All of these different but holding as much power and significance.
I have remained silent for a long while now. So much so that speculation about why I'm silent has traveled through my family, which isn't unusual. However, what I've learned about myself is if you love someone, you don't sit back, watch them struggle, do nothing then talk about it as if they are wrong for having a struggle. The truth is we may be the owners of our struggle but the care and love that goes into pulling one out of the struggle is a community effort. What manner of man will step over a hungry man while filling his belly without cares?
We have to think on these things before challenging someone's struggle. In my silence I have learned a lot about who I am. I have learned what makes me defensive. I have learned what calls out to my heart in grief. I have learned how to maintain calm in the moments when an angry tirade would be fitting for the situation. I have also learned that every person has their own perception of each thing in this world. Some may find a common ground to stand on in judgment of others but the truth still remains that unless you are living within someone's silence, you have no idea what's going on in their heads and hearts unless they grant you access. The problem with granting access into your silence is that the silence become broken and if there isn't an understanding of the position you stand, that person or people, even if not intentional, will become a disturbance.
Before someone challenges someone's perception of honestly, one must understand that there is the truth that is, a truth that is perceived and a truth that is desired. Most people can't handle the truth that is. They feel judged and challenged in a way that is uncomfortable and they can't compete with what is. The perceived truth is gained through speculation or observance from a distance but still lacking in full transparency. The problem with perceived truth is it feels so much like real truth that it is indeed the cause of misunderstanding, judgement, fall outs, anger and broken relationships.
Be careful about what you think you know to be true.
The desired truth is the hope that what is will turn into something that you would prefer instead of the reality you have to deal with. Unfortunately, too many of us take up too much of our time, quiet or otherwise, wishing and hoping for something to be when it simply isn't.
Hard choices are revealed in our quiet moments. Struggles are outlined in our quiet moments. Chaos is itemized in our quiet moments. However, do not lose heart. In your moments of solitude, peace can be found. Love can be revealed. Strength can be gained. Resolution may be discovered.
Even if you are not in a time of struggle, spend some quiet time alone. There is a level of peace that may emote from you that others simply will not understand. Those of us who have endured much during our lives, and that's just about everyone, need to be aware of our true selves. How we really feel about ourselves and what we desire in this lifetime. Sometimes you have to shut everything out to discover what's inside.
May you have the mind to create quiet, reflective and peaceful moments in the midst of your storm. May God's spirit be with you so that truth may be revealed. Not the truth you desire or perceive but the truth that is.
B@Peace.
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